I Miss You

Dear you,

Yeah, the title kinda says it all doesn't it? I just out of no where started thinking of all the times we had together. I miss them so badly. I wonder if we'll have the chance to share such moments again in the near future. Yeah, that's right, those moments had passed. But no matter what, they will always be part of us as memories and I hope these memories don't just end there. They won't have to, it all depends on us.

What I'd do to see your smile and hear your laughter. There's nothing we can do but just hope for things to be better soon. It's been tough lately I think we both realized. We don't seem to be able to do the things we used to do, say the things we want to say or even be the way we are supposed to be. Having said that, it feels different between us now and how much I want it to remain the way it was but we can't help it, can we? The only thing we can do is to move on.

We've been through so much together. And we can make it through the rain. Everything happens for a reason, it just guides us to where we are now. I always believe that if things are meant to be, they will find it's way some how to where it truly belongs.

I'll make this short and quick because I'm positive you would understand what I'm feeling here and I think you do feel the same way too, being in the similar situation and all. Nothing in the entire world can take up the special place you have in my heart.  

Love always,

me :)

Newbie

OMG! like it was my first day at the new school. So yeah.. was kinda nervous and scared. Mom and dad dropped me off on my 1st day and during the ride i was texting my bf, Sheng and bff, Jules as well. They were like giving me words of encouragement and stuff like that. I felt like a little kid starting her first day in preschool. When we finally arrived I was hesitating to get out of the car. I was delaying for time but i knew that i had to go one way or another. So i got myself together and went for it.

Wow.. let's just say.. it's soo different here! Well that is to be expected and yeah just hope that i can manage to adapt soon. Today was a blur.. Seriously. I know i'm usually a blur person anyway but this time i mean it. like i didn't really know what's going on and what's where or who's who. It was scary probably because i just got there and have been in the same school for lyk almost all my life.. about 10 years or so.. amazing isnt it.

It's so weird being known as the new girl. yeah.. totally akward and i felt like an outsider. I'm not complaining but i'm just so not used to it. Let's see.. there are some nice people around so i guess it's not too bad. But nothing can compare to my buddies. It's wouldn't be the same. I'll just hope for the best. More importantly, I'm starting to feel stress now because i'm way behind in studies during class for every single subject :( it's not my fault my previous school doesn't go as fast. It's like few chapters ahead here.

It hadn't been such a long day as i have expected it to be. Before i knew it, it was time to go home. Mom was picking me up. And once i saw her. I felt so emotional. Don't quite know where that came from though. When she asked how was everything i told her bout the positive part of things instead of being a 100% honest. Why? Simply because i didn't wanted to dissappoint her. My parents, well they have done so much for me and i feel like i can't tell them how i really feel because i would never want to make them sad. What I did was smile and kept quiet.

So yeah, I miss everyone soo much!! I couldn't stand it when i was on the phone with Sheng. I was actually close to tears when i heard his voice. It has only been a day but seems like forever.

Yesterday is history,
Tomorrow is mystery,
Today is a gift, treasure it :)