Newbie

OMG! like it was my first day at the new school. So yeah.. was kinda nervous and scared. Mom and dad dropped me off on my 1st day and during the ride i was texting my bf, Sheng and bff, Jules as well. They were like giving me words of encouragement and stuff like that. I felt like a little kid starting her first day in preschool. When we finally arrived I was hesitating to get out of the car. I was delaying for time but i knew that i had to go one way or another. So i got myself together and went for it.

Wow.. let's just say.. it's soo different here! Well that is to be expected and yeah just hope that i can manage to adapt soon. Today was a blur.. Seriously. I know i'm usually a blur person anyway but this time i mean it. like i didn't really know what's going on and what's where or who's who. It was scary probably because i just got there and have been in the same school for lyk almost all my life.. about 10 years or so.. amazing isnt it.

It's so weird being known as the new girl. yeah.. totally akward and i felt like an outsider. I'm not complaining but i'm just so not used to it. Let's see.. there are some nice people around so i guess it's not too bad. But nothing can compare to my buddies. It's wouldn't be the same. I'll just hope for the best. More importantly, I'm starting to feel stress now because i'm way behind in studies during class for every single subject :( it's not my fault my previous school doesn't go as fast. It's like few chapters ahead here.

It hadn't been such a long day as i have expected it to be. Before i knew it, it was time to go home. Mom was picking me up. And once i saw her. I felt so emotional. Don't quite know where that came from though. When she asked how was everything i told her bout the positive part of things instead of being a 100% honest. Why? Simply because i didn't wanted to dissappoint her. My parents, well they have done so much for me and i feel like i can't tell them how i really feel because i would never want to make them sad. What I did was smile and kept quiet.

So yeah, I miss everyone soo much!! I couldn't stand it when i was on the phone with Sheng. I was actually close to tears when i heard his voice. It has only been a day but seems like forever.

Yesterday is history,
Tomorrow is mystery,
Today is a gift, treasure it :)