Wasted

Let's see.. Well.. What is there to say? I feel like I've been wasting my time all these years doing things that will never benefit myself. Totally wasted. It feels silly now and no, this is not out of regret or anything. I don't regret the decisions I've made and the things I've done. I guess I wasn't doing the right things or thinking for myself, that's all.

Now I'm basically trying to get out of this position I'm in and do something good for myself for once. Can't wait till I feel how I should by right be feeling, happy. I want to, but it's not easy with all kinda stuff going on which btw, I do not wanna talk about. 

I've heard that you don't have to put any effort at all in order to be happy, you just be. Maybe that is true some how. Just gotta loosen up and let go right? I wish it is that easy as well. Because if it is then all pain and suffering people feel would be gone. Oh, who am I kidding? That's almost impossible!

New love

Mommy and Daddy, I love you!! thank you very much. hehe.
I found a new love :) am so happy.. yay!! what brings this sudden joy and excitement to me you may ask.

You see, I have always been on the bad side of mobile phones. I'ts either i some how break them or they stop working. Don't know how they always end up busted. Maybe i dont really take good care of them. But hey, at least i try. Really, i do. So this entry is dedicated to all of my ex-cellphones. I'm sorry, i don't know what has gotten into all of you. I hate to do this but this is how things work. You stop cooperating with me and therefore, I can't use you anymore. Shall you all some how remain some where in my heart. May you all rest in peace *moment of silence* sobs

But hey look what just happened today. Was out for breakfast with parents and Jo(sis). As we were about to go home they went into a shop to get something.. And lookie lookie :) Aww.. *tears of joy* haha.. that's just exaturating. But yeah it made my day start of with a smile. Can't wait to test it out and see what this baby can do. Owh.. there she is right below. Aww.. isn't she a beauty?

So then I spent the day shopping and wee.. it's fun. My greatest hobby of all :) Nothing out of the odinary happened today. Or maybe i'm just too overjoyed to notice.