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OMG! like it was my first day at the new school. So yeah.. was kinda nervous and scared. Mom and dad dropped me off on my 1st day and during the ride i was texting my bf, Sheng and bff, Jules as well. They were like giving me words of encouragement and stuff like that. I felt like a little kid starting her first day in preschool. When we finally arrived I was hesitating to get out of the car. I was delaying for time but i knew that i had to go one way or another. So i got myself together and went for it.

Wow.. let's just say.. it's soo different here! Well that is to be expected and yeah just hope that i can manage to adapt soon. Today was a blur.. Seriously. I know i'm usually a blur person anyway but this time i mean it. like i didn't really know what's going on and what's where or who's who. It was scary probably because i just got there and have been in the same school for lyk almost all my life.. about 10 years or so.. amazing isnt it.

It's so weird being known as the new girl. yeah.. totally akward and i felt like an outsider. I'm not complaining but i'm just so not used to it. Let's see.. there are some nice people around so i guess it's not too bad. But nothing can compare to my buddies. It's wouldn't be the same. I'll just hope for the best. More importantly, I'm starting to feel stress now because i'm way behind in studies during class for every single subject :( it's not my fault my previous school doesn't go as fast. It's like few chapters ahead here.

It hadn't been such a long day as i have expected it to be. Before i knew it, it was time to go home. Mom was picking me up. And once i saw her. I felt so emotional. Don't quite know where that came from though. When she asked how was everything i told her bout the positive part of things instead of being a 100% honest. Why? Simply because i didn't wanted to dissappoint her. My parents, well they have done so much for me and i feel like i can't tell them how i really feel because i would never want to make them sad. What I did was smile and kept quiet.

So yeah, I miss everyone soo much!! I couldn't stand it when i was on the phone with Sheng. I was actually close to tears when i heard his voice. It has only been a day but seems like forever.

Yesterday is history,
Tomorrow is mystery,
Today is a gift, treasure it :)

A new chapter

So i guess i'll be leaving school.. and well.. everything's gonna be soo different. I hate having to leave my buddies behind and i felt so bad having to. But what i see is a different environment, a fresh start, a beginning that doesn't neccesarily means ending the past, it's a new chapter.. in life. My last day of school.. well.. it's something that i will remain in my heart as a memory.

Today started with me having to go over to my 'soon to be' school to get some stuff ready. I can't believe i'm starting on Monday! It's all happening too fast. And yeah i'm like totally freaked out by how things are going to turn out to be like. Yes, honestly i am kinda scared and nervous.. who wouldn't be. I mean transfering schools in the middle of the year.. It's going to be weird and akward. Wonder how am i going to make it through having a good night's sleep without thinking about how things are going to be.

I've skipped the exams today to go over to the new school. Parents wanted me to take the day off. But i promised my friends i would go. You know, last day and all. At least to say goodbye. It was sort of like a reunion for our 'gang' today. Josh came back for a visit from Aussie! haven't seen him in so long. We are all going our different ways and directions. It's sad to leave but sometimes thats just how things are supposed to be.



Went around saying goodbye to everyone while Joshie was dropping to say a hello. awww.. He got us each a present with out names engraved on it. I watched as he went digging into his bag and pulling out a stuffed koala or kangaroo for the teachers. haha.. santa claus :) Was very sweet of my class teacher to get me a cake as in for a fairwell. Unfortunately, she wasn't around so i had to thank her by leaving her a message.



We all took some pics and talked and hung out. But then it really hit me when i saw Jules and Manda getting all teary as i was about to go. Then at that moment i realised.. this is it.. here is where we part. I never got to understand how much we mean to each other, how we play a role in each other's life. I tried to smile and tell them everything's going to be just fine. But on the inside i was crying as well. I gave everyone goodbye hugs and just make myself move forward.. to leave.. because i knew it was time.



I don't expect things to be easy. I know it's going to be a tough new start. Things are definately going to be different, no doubt about that. But i'm glad to know that the people i love and care about are always here by my side all the time, through thick and thin. I'm not all that sure if i'm ready or not. I may not be prepared. But just got to get it over with or i'll be stuck in the middle. No one knows what the future holds. So i guess i'll have to wait and see to find out! And just hope for the best!!